Doing things differently for a bit

I'm trying to manage burn-out, so I'm going to stop with the daily weighings and stop with the log tracking.

I'm doing a test run of my new plan this week and getting all my lifting weights figured out. I'm doing a lot of lifts I've never done, and so I'm establishing a baseline.

I'll be doing monthly pictures for now instead of weights and charts. I'm worrying FAR too much about what the scale says, and not nearly enough about what really matters. I gain 5 pounds of muscle and lose 3 pounds of fat, the scale says I gained two pounds, and then I feel like a failure. That is a crappy way to do things. So screw the scale for now. Screw the log. I know if I'm eating right and hitting my workouts. For now, I don't need the accountability, and don't want the overhead of messing with the chart.

I'll most that picture in my post down to a permanent spot, and then post up monthly pictures and we'll see if there's a change.

I think I have my muscles ready to go

I hope to start my new plan on Monday. I spent this week getting my body used to being pushed again. I think I'm ready to go. This new plan makes SOOO much more sense to me. I hope I get results out of it.

I've sucked so much ass in the last month it makes me cry

194 bitches. That's right. 194. I was 194 this morning. I'm damn near back to last year's weight. It's freaking AMAZING how quick it goes. In about 6 weeks I put on 10 pounds, can't run for shit, can't lift for shit, and look like this:

That's some bullshit. I mean, that ain't a BAD body, but it is WAY worse than it was 6 weeks ago.

So I start a new plan today. I have this week to re-aclimate myself to strenuous workouts and dietting, and then next week it's ON! I wasn't going to post this horrible picture, but I have to be honest with everyone. You can't get anywhere if you're in denial about where you're starting from. I mean, even at my current state I'm 56 pounds down from where I started. I'll get this. It just takes more dedication.